The Satanist Daily.

This is a response of my friend and fellow LHPer, Aleph, who posted My place in the Satanic zeitgeist a few weeks back.

Lately, through certain social media groups and exposition to forums and such, I’ve now gotten a better understanding of what “Satanism” means to other Satanists beside myself. I’ve now just realized how secluded and individual my practice is, to the point that I was quite surprised to discover what some (many!) Satanists (not reverse christians) do and say that for me, is not very Satanic, nor LHP for that matter. I live in a small town, so getting in touch with other practitioners in person is not really possible. (The estimated satanic population here in France is of about 1500 people, scattered across the country, but present enough in the capital area).

I’ve learned to dissect these online communities and take part in mostly unfruitful discussions. These groups are mostly sharing goth-dark themed photos and some highly questionable philosophical material, which I promptly respond to, debunking any fallacies that may appear, usually getting the approval of other members, or the response of the original poster. There sometimes is a seemingly competent Satanist here and there in these groups, but like me, they tend to keep to themselves. Thanks to this experience I think I can formulate an intelligent post on what my place is on the Satanic metaphorical panoramic photograph.

Satan: Father vs Master vs Archetype vs God(s) vs Whatever

I think this is what left me the most perplexed when exploring the beliefs of other Satanists. Some Satanists (alarmingly many) see Satan as an authority, for the most part under the fatherly figure, probably people coming from a Joy of Satan background (like me, but I grew out of it pretty fast). The judeo-christian fatherly God comes to mind, rather than a rebellious fallen angel (for those who believe Satan IS Lucifer, such as me) or some kind of deity of undefiled wisdom and curiosity. Satan is NOT a protective entity, he is for me a teacher of sorts, whose only lesson is love for oneself, and one’s ideas. The rest of the Satanic philosophia is derived from that. Monotheistic in nature, yet a strong belief in demons (again, JoS-like), and practice.

In this same kind of mentality, comes the Satan=Master mindset, which again, goes against most Satanic teachings, which say we are one’s only master (or god). I cannot think of anything more RHP than selling your soul to an entity in exchange of salvation, or in this case, protection and power. That’s what the catholic church does! How can you not see it? This part of the perceived Satanic community almost always hasn’t come in contact with any Satanic literature, and if they did they just chose to ignore the most important part of it: freedom of will! Usually purely monotheistic, sometimes soft polytheism, beliefs in demons is there but they see them as slaves/servants of Satan.

Then come the few LaVeyans who find themselves in mainly theistic groups because why the hell not and they just go “oh I’m not theistic so your argument means nothing to me”. They aren’t able to debate in ANY other terms than the ones they impose. At least they are the most down-to earth. That’s cool. Atheistic. Some Agnostics. Witchcraft not out of the question for some.

Hard polytheists like me are scarce in these groups, dominated by the first three groups. But the few of us that are clearly polytheistic, are divided amongst “clans”. The first clan is the one that believes that Satan is a multi-facetical entity (usually composed of four of the following: Asmodeus, Lucifer, Leviathan, Behemoth, Baphomet, Beelzebub), while the other one is just “the rest” (I’m in here) with highly eclectic or “personalised” beliefs, everyone’s a little different, a little the same. I’m in this category.

Also there are the guys who believe Satan is an alien who gave us technology and stuff.

Optimism vs Pessimism

What the hell is wrong with some of these people? Always saying depressive and pessimistic stuff? When did Satanic groups become a hiding place for 2004 emo kids who never really grew up? Posting half-naked, black dyed hair, super skinny chicks, cutting their veins? I’m serious. What the hell? Or people who do some ritual and literally commenting afterwards “I am a true pessimist, life is shit and nothing will come out of it” THEN WHY ARE YOU DOING A FRIGGING RITUAL THEN? Hey, magic is not that hard: Do some stuff > expect it it to succeed > success OR Do some stuff > expect it to fail > fail.

Rant over. Satanism is about optimism and positivity in regards to the outcome of any action. It is illogical to act with a negative outcome in mind. Also worrying about general positivity or negativity of stuff is overly manicheist and should be avoided. Nothing is entirely positive or negative, and without a way to measure it, it is pointless to debate what action is “more” positive than another.

Dogma vs Dynamic Morals©

Yes, I invented the term Dynamic Morals©. It is mine now.

Anyhow, Satanism is all but dogmatic. On the contrary, Satanism is about analysing every situation independently, chose a possible outcome, and act accordingly. Having a dogma is restraining and can put you in complicated situations in which you either break your dogma or you act against your own well-being.

Well some people have created a “Satanic” Dogma, inspired heavily by LaVey’s Rules of the Earth and Sins, which basically a more strict and stiff version of those rules. No interpretation allowed.

I practice what I call Dynamic Morals© which basically one fundamental rule (that is inherently Satanic for me) and then the rest is up to interpretation for each individual situation.

This rule is: “Your well-being is of ultimate importance”.

It can be applied to any situation. If the basis of the reasoning is this motto, the reasoning is for me inherently Satanic.

I don’t think there is”wrong or right” in Satanism, other than at an individual level. And even for me, when it comes to non-mathematical situations, there is no right or wrong, but just an arbitrary choice that was made after a period of analysis and reasoning. Unless the choice is factually wrong, like trying to put out fire with gasoline. Yeah that’s definitely wrong.


I would now like to address some of what my friend Aleph said in his post:

Satanism is the philosophy that places emphasis on self-preservation

That might be true for LaVeyan Satanism, but for most forms of Theistic Satanism (specially spiritual Satanism) the elevation of the soul, reaching god-hood, and all that is placed extremely high in the Satanic priority list.

Another main difference between Satanism and Luciferianism is that Luciferianism advocates the pursuit of a higher self.

Same as above. The pursuit of a higher self is predominant in Theistic Satanism.

If hedonism at its root is the maximization of pleasure and the avoidance of pain and negative experiences.

I’d argue that Satanic hedonism would never put pleasure before truth, meaning Satanic hedonism would NOT prefer a pleasurable lie to a harsh truth. To avoid negative experiences doesn’t mean denying them or their existence. Also a negative experience doesn’t need to be avoided when it can lead to further pleasure and well-being. It is a trade to be made. Any true hedonist knows that without pain there’s no pleasure. What we avoid is unecessary pain.

is it right to do something to others that you think they have done to yourself or others

The problem here is dogmatism/stiff morals. Linking an action to a right vs wrong mindset independently of the situation is what creates this dilemma. Nothing is inherently wrong or right until the action has been carried out and the victims/perpetrator roles have been handed out. Then you can make out what is, FOR YOU right or wrong. Once it is time to take revenge, if the same action that was made against you seems the appropriate punishment for the person, then the roles are inverted and you are free to qualifiy however you want the same action.

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Balance and movement.

There is a certain connotation of immobility to the concept of Balance. When we say someone is balanced we are struck with an image of perfect equilibrium, of a sphere perfectly balanced atop a needle.

For me, this characteristic is anti-satanic. 

The Satanist is in an eternal state of oscillation. He changes and adapts, he moves and relocates himself in order to adapt to the never ending chaos that is existence. Balance only works in a balanced world. Alas, our world isn’t. 

Our world is ever changing. It moves chaotically and erratically according to an infinity of variables, well beyond our measurement. And since we cannot predict the changes of our world, the best we can do is become masters of our oscillation. The laws of nature proved to us that it is the creature that adapts the fastest and best to its ever-changing environment, that lives the longest and survives to further evolve.

The Satanist should strive to be that perfect being of nature. Unfazed by the chaos around him, he should swiftly adapt to its new environment, and make it his once again, until nature tests him once again.

Satanists are oscillators, not balancists. 


Haram Month 2: Art and Tattoos. 

As part of the Haram month I want to talk about something that is very relevant to me and to the West.

Most forms of art are forbidden in Islam. Calligraphy and non-figurative art are allowed, but figurative art (in which sentient beings are represented) is strictly forbidden. Some figurative Islamic art is found in countries that were converted to Islam but don’t speak Arabic (notably in Persia). I guess that’s because they didn’t have full access to the hadiths. Anyway, it is proscribed to create figurative art. This alone is unacceptable. Prohibiting certain forms of art leads to a hindered freedom of expression. And also hinders the creativity of the artist, as figurative art is about 70% of western graphical art.

Music is also prohibited, as Muhammad (curses be upon him*) despised musical instruments. I think certain religious chants are allowed but that’s about it. No secular music, no music instruments. I am a musician and really I can’t imagine what a world without music would be like. It is of my understanding that according to Islam and the hadiths musical instruments are a tool of the Shaytan and should be destroyed.

In a similar manner, tattoos and body modifications are strictly forbidden, as it is modifying “Allah’s (may he be cursed*) creation” and thus defying him. As a matter of coincidence, I got my tattoo done yesterday, depicting the goetic symbols of my four main deities: Satan, Beelzebub, Astaroth and Azazel.

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From top to bottom: Satan, Beelzebub, Astaroth and Azazel.

I am incredibly happy with the result and now going to take care of it so the healing process goes well. For the record, Satan’s sigil was the most painful one to make, I could feel Satan infusing his essence unto my tattoo as it was getting done, and after it was done, it was the only one of the symbols who did not hurt afterwards, and is healing much faster than the rest. What more haram than getting a tattoo of Satan?

For the general muslim if you have done or possess figurative art, hear or compose non islamic music, or have done or got a tattoo/piercing done, congratulations, you are a sinner and should be punished! In most cases Islam prescribes death, but hey, if you’re lucky maybe you will only get your arm (where the tattoo is) cut, or if they go easy on you, a few hundred whip strikes. And without ny doubt, damnation on judgement day! Curses be upon Allah and his cursed prophet Muhmmad!

*In all pro-islam sites, when Muhammad or any of his acolytes are mentioned, follows a parenthesis like “(blessings be upon him)” and stuff like that. I’d guess I’d make a parody of it.


The Satanic Ritual

Tonight, I will tell you how I perform satanic rituals. I will give you a detailed outline of a ritual, and also how to do a quick spell, and also how can you do magic all the time through what I call “hyper-consciousness”.

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Satanic Ritual

My rituals are divided into 9 phases:

  • Preparation
  • Opening/Invocation
  • Description
  • Gathering the energy
  • Infusing the energy
  • Releasing/directing the energy
  • Cleansing of self and of the altar
  • Closing
  • “It is done”

Preparation:

This phase is crucial, since it will allow the ritual to unfold without unnecessary interruptions. At this stage it is best if you write down all you’re going to need during the ritual:

  • What items/objects/tools are you going to use? Put them in the altar beforehand.
  • Which entities and/or elements are you going to call upon? Prepare any sigils that are to be used.
  • What technique are you going to use in order to gather, infuse, and direct the energy? Try to use the same kind of technique for the three phases.
  • How do you plan to cleanse yourself and the altar from any energetic remains?
  • How are you going to close the ritual? Are you going to just thank the entities? Make an offering? Have everything ready at this phase so that the transitions between phases of the ritual are as smooth as possible.

During the preparation phase (which can take hours or even days before the actual ritual) you should be able to imagine the whole ritual from beginning to end as vivid as possible. Write down and memorize as much as you can of all you’re going to say, and be sure to fully understand the meaning of what you say. Be precise and concise with your words.

Opening:

Now the ritual begins. Opening the ritual can be as simple as lighting a candle, or ringing a bell. You can also drink a sip from your chalice. You can just close your eyes while you take a deep breath. You just need to create a symbolic separation from the mundane world around you, so you are exclusively inside your sacred mental realm.

We reached the point of no return. Once you’ve opened the ritual, there is no turning back. Any interruption on your part from now on is a lack of respect towards your magic, the deities, entities and spirits involved, and it just takes power from you, since you get distracted and your frame of mind changes focus.

During this opening phase you will want to call upon the forces that will accompany you and aid you during the ritual. Personally I call upon my four main gods for all my rituals; I like them to watch over my workings. Sometimes they will “positively” intervene, or even directly share their wisdom over the subject.

You can also invoke or call upon specific entities or spirits in order to help you more directly with the matter at hand. You can use their sigil or just their name. You can just imagine the being in question, asking it (politely) to participate.

Now that you’ve gathered all the external forces that are going to work with you, you might as well tell them why the hell you brought them here!

Description:

The description of the ritual is something you should have written down during the preparation phase. It is a way of letting all the forces involved (and your subconscious as well) know the objective of your ritual, as well as how you’re going to proceed. It is important you enunciate how you are going to proceed (in simple terms) so the external forces have an easier time working with you. Treat all the forces you’ve invoked politely, as if they were really important guests. No need for a formal tone either, you just be causal-yet-respectful about it: “I’ve called upon you all to request assistance on your part for tonight’s ritual. I intend to get a new job, and your help would be infinitely appreciated, and invaluable for my success. I will gather the energy using meditation, then I will chant to infuse it with my intent, and finally I will release it by screaming the name of my potential employer at the top of my lungs!” Be clear on your terms.

Be precise with what you want, and with some luck the results will be equally precise. The more you do rituals and invest yourself in magic, the less dependent on luck the results will be.

During this part of the ritual I like to ask the involved demons and spirits, using a pendulum, if they agree to participate and aid during the ritual. If they don’t agree to the terms of the ritual, you can tell them they can leave if they so desire, but can stay to watch the rest of the ritual. In my experience, some demons will want to watch you do magic, so they can gauge your power and decide whether you are worthy of their aid, or if you really need it. Don’t hesitate to ask them for feedback once your ritual is over. A demon’s insight on your magic can be very valuable, but their word is not law. Continue doing your thing as you feel you should; just be open to try suggestions.

Gathering of energy:

There are countless ways to gather energy. In fact, the three stages of energy manipulation (gathering, infusing, and releasing) should happen one after the other without much interruption. You can use meditation, chanting, dancing, affirmations, masturbating, etc. to gather, then infuse, then release energy. In my experience, the more seamless the transition between the stages (without mixing them, the three stages have to be clearly defined) the more effective the energy used will be.

What you want to achieve is to concentrate in one spot (outside or inside you, depending on the objective) all of the energy you intend to use during the ritual. Use your own energy first, then gather energy from the elements, your surrounding air, the Earth, the Moon, the Sun, whatever you think fits. Then you can ask the spirits/demons/deities you called upon to lend you their strength or to simply add up their energy to the energy core you’ve created.

Infusing the energy:

In this stage you need to give that raw energy core a characteristic, a purpose, a “color”, so to speak. It can be emotions, such as joy, sadness, love, or senses like sight, hearing, or characteristics such as separation, binding, healing, and destruction, soothing, agitating. Just keep it as simple as you can. If you are a beginner, you might want to infuse the energy with a bit more precise characteristic. I’ll explain more in the next phase.

As I said, try your best to keep the transitions between the three stages of energy manipulation as seamless as possible.

Releasing/directing the energy:

This is probably the most important and delicate part of the whole ritual. Misdirecting the energy will not only render the whole spell completely useless, but it also may cause adverse effects. Imagine you have a gun, you load your bullet (gathering), you chose who you’re going to shoot (infusing) but then you shoot the wrong person (failed directing)! It can be catastrophic, especially if you’re somewhat experienced and have achieved good power. I recommend beginners to infuse their energy with more precise characteristics such as “love between X and me”, “destruction for Y” etc. to compensate for their skills at directing energy.

If you ever fail to direct the energy correctly: in some cases demons don’t mind if you restart the whole manipulation of energy phase. Some will find it annoying. Some will even take it as offense. Know your demons well if you work with them.

Cleansing:

After you’ve directed the energy, the main part of the ritual is done. Now it is time to cleanse your altar and yourself from any energetic residue. You can clean your altar by casting away the energy remnants, or use a tool specifically designed to, burn an incense, etc. To clean yourself you can do a simple meditation using your breath to exhale the energy remnants inside you, or whatever works for you. Some magicians/witches/sorcerers don’t cleanse their altar, saying that they can use the residual energy for other workings. However I think it is harder to repurpose energy that has already been infused than to gather the same amount from scratch. Do as you please.

Closing:

During the closing phase you thank all the external forces that helped you and you tell them they can now leave. Be polite and respectful when addressing demons and they will be polite and respectful to you, and more inclined to come help you later on.

Take out the candles, take another sip from the chalice, ring the bell, do anything that brings you back to the physical world.

“It is done”

And now, you have to acknowledge that your ritual worked and it is taken effect. You have to believe in the strength of your working, or you will get nothing.

It worked, now you can move on, or help the ritual’s purpose in the mundane world.

And that’s it.

Example of a ritual

An altar facing north stood in the middle of a room dimly lit by a single candle and the light of the moon that penetrated through one of the windows. On the altar several items were prepared, with an empty space in the middle except for an open blank notebook and the sigil of the demon Orobas.

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A shadowy figure emerged from the darkness: a man wearing a black hooded robe. He stood before the altar and checked one last time if everything was ready.

“It is time to begin.”

As he muttered these words, he lit two other candles.

The sorcerer unsheathed the ritual dagger and pointed it to the west.

“I call upon thee, Beelzebub, may you watch over my ritual.”

Then he pointed the dagger to the south.

“I call upon thee, Astaroth, may you watch over my ritual.”

The sorcerer pointed the dagger to the east.

“I call upon thee, Azazel, may you watch over my ritual.”

Finally he pointed it to the north.

“I call upon thee, Satan, may you watch over my ritual.”

The sorcerer sheathed the dagger and put it in the place it was before. He took out the pendulum from its protective bag, and held it over Orobas’ sigil.

“Orobas, powerful demon, I invoke you tonight since your help would be immensely appreciated for the ritual I am about to perform. Do you accept my invitation?”

After a few seconds, the pendulum started moving back and forth. A slight smile formed on the man’s mouth.

“Very well.”

The sorcerer put the pendulum on top of the protective bag, not too far from the sigil. He took a step back from the altar.

“I have lived my life happily. I’ve gotten what I’ve wanted. I’ve been successful in my life. But some people that used to call me their friend now consider me a betrayer, for putting my own interests before their own. They were warned, on top of it. They knew me well, and even so they were surprised when I chose my happiness instead of theirs. What foolishness to react that way to something I was quite clear on. But now these people might represent a threat to me. A little help is always welcome. Therefore I call upon you to help me be able to defend myself against any spiritual, mental, or physical threat these people can attempt on me.”

The sorcerer held once again the pendulum over Orobas’ sigil.

“Do you accept to aid me on this ritual?”

Once again, the pendulum moved back and forth.

“Alright. I will meditate to gather the energy inside of me, and then Orobas will pour his energy in. I will then infuse the energy with the concept of invulnerability by vibrating the word. After that I shall cover myself with this energy releasing it as a protective barrier stuck to my skin.”

The sorcerer sat comfortably on a pillow and breathed deeply several times. Once he was relaxed and ready, he started meditating, concentrating energy on his chest. He visualized energy flowing from each corner of his body towards his chest. The energy moved in waves, synchronized with his breathing. Once he felt ready, he started chanting.

“In… vul… ne… ra… bi… li… ty…”

He did this for a few minutes, until he felt the energy inside him was completely in tune with the concept he had chosen.

The sorcerer then visualized the energy expanding outwards in waves and concentrating at the skin. He visualized the barrier forming on top of his skin, adhering to it. He did this until he felt all of the energy he had gathered was now adhered to his skin. He felt powerful, invincible.

Once he felt protected, he proceeded to cleanse the altar with incense, trying to make the smoke touch as many items as possible. He finally commanded all remaining energy to go away.

“Thank you all for participating. Beelzebub, Astaroth, Azazel, Satan, thank you for coming, your presence has been an honour, as it has always been. Thank you for aiding me during this ritual Orobas. I shall light a candle in your honour and let it burn entirely. It has been an honour to work with you. You may all leave at this time. The ritual is now complete.”

The sorcerer took out all of the candles, except one he left lit as an offering to Orobas.

The hooded man took a step away from the altar and said to himself:

“It is done. I am now invulnerable.”

Quick spell:

For just a quick spell in which only you are involved, you can skip all of the phases and go directly to the energy manipulation stage. Of course, since this kind of spell is more improvised, you are going to have a hard time getting in the right state of mind directly. However your sub-consciousness is always in the right state of mind. Therefore use heavily symbolical acts in order to stimulate your subconscious into doing its magic. For example you can tear the photo of a person you’d like to curse, and then burn the pieces. You can for instance take a drawing/photo of yourself and submerge it in a pot full of coins to attract money. Stuff like that. Your imagination as well as your belief in your own power are the only limits.

Hyperconsciousness:

Hyperconsciousness is a state I can achieve, in which I can work magic in real time without any formality.

Through meditation, you should try to achieve a state in which your physical consciousness and your spiritual subconscious become a single thing. You can feel and perceive the physical world and the spiritual one at the same time with equivalent clarity. By doing this often you will progressively learn how to enter this state (even if only for a few instants) at will. Then you can try this in the real world! By entering hyperconsciousness at key instants during your day, you will be able to manipulate energies and influencing your surroundings so as to make your life significantly better. By my research I believe that entering hyperconsciousness at will might be the path to being a live God, in some way.


New apartment. Vengeance.

So, I’ve finally moved to my new place. It’s small, but I am alone and in a calm place. I couldn’t ask for more. I finished moving all my stuff today, it was tiring, but I’m pretty happy about it.

A Satanist, as any practitioner of a mostly solitary spirituality, knows how important it is to have a place for themselves… To have a “temple” so to speak. Some Satanists’ temples are their own body. For me, it is the case, but I also have my physical equivalent, which is my altar.

I did my first ritual a few minutes ago. It had two purposes: The first one was to cleanse, purify and consecrate the new altar, as well as the whole apartment. The second one was to get revenge, and destroy those who have been a bother to me in the past few months.

Vengeance.

I made a ritual in which I gathered my own strength, and asked my four main deities (Satan, Beelzebub, Ashtaroth and Azazel) as well as the four elements, to aid me to gather and concentrate the destructive forces of the universe. Then I invoked Orobas and Haures (if you follow my blog you should know by now they are my two protector demons) and asked them to lend me their strength and services to destroy these people who have tried (and failed) to harm me. They will learn their lesson the hard way. One does not simply fuck with a Satanic sorcerer.
I’ve been doing sorcery for 7 years, and I have successfully harmed people through magic. I am powerful, and I have proven it to myself (and to my victims). I have cursed. I have demons and gods who support me in my rituals, I am becoming a god/demon myself.

If you chose to fuck with me, so be it, but be ready to face the consequences. Natural selection will do its thing after all.

For the ritual I summoned forth the forces of my main deities, as well as the elements, and invoked into my own body the spirits Orobas and Haures. They have both previously helped me get rid and get revenge on my enemies. I lit two candles for each and one fifth candle as a thanks for answering the call.

I then wrote on a piece of paper, the fate I wanted for the individuals concerned. I wrote in capitals and in bold the keywords of their upcoming suffering. At the back of this paper I wrote my petition to Orobas and Haures, writing their names, and writing the petition to help me carry out the fate inscribed on the paper. I then folded the paper many times, and stabbed it with my dagger (which represents the element of Fire). I then proceeded to slowly burn the paper with the offering candle, using the mortar (which represents Earth) as a support for the ashes. All while slightly meditating and concentrating my energy and forces into the paper, in order to strengthen the intention of the words.

I then closed the ritual, dispelled all the negative energies from my sacred space, and told the participating entities that they could now go, thanking them in the process.

I left the offering candle lit, and it will remain like that until it is entirely consumed.

This is the aftermath of the ritual.

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Satanic Obsession.

I’m becoming more and more obsessed with being an adversary, an opposer. The Satan inside me pushes me to constantly question and contradict everything. I cannot read something without thinking “well that might not be true”.

This is both positive and negative:

The positive:

Being often faced with opportunities to oppose something that is preconceived as true/good/correct has enhanced my rhetoric and thought process over the years. It has taught me to take care of having hermetically constructed arguments. It has taught me to think a lot, to think for myself and to make abstraction of all preconceived things. It has heightened my understanding of the nature of truth itself.

I’m also more open-minded and critically thinking than I was before. I’ll accept any idea if you are able to prove it’s true (and I can’t respond/contradict it).

The negative:

I’m obsessed with opposing everything. I am in most cases unable to hear or read a statement/fact without at some point trying to question its veracity (unless it’s out of my knowledge area). This has cost me a lot during social encounters. I cannot hold a conversation without turning it into a debate; this causes people to end the conversation quickly, as a debates are not usually welcomed by casual encounters. This is the source of much frustration. From a social point of view, it is frustrating as I just killed a conversation. And from a adversarial point of view, it is frustrating as well as it became a one sided way-too-short debate without any real outcome.

On top of that none of my old friends want to hold debates with me any more since “I’m always right”. Which is not necessarily true, but I surely have better ways to present my arguments than them, as I’m faced with that all day, but they aren’t.

It also becomes increasingly frustrating to be really ignorant when it comes to scientific matters. I’m far from knowing stuff in science, which is utterly necessary for someone who likes debates.

On a final note, I admit that I rather have debates than post things on this blog. But the former doesn’t happen as often as I would like it to.

I call this the Satanic Obsession as it is Satanic to be adversarial, to be an opposer, but it has become obsessive: it enhances my intellect, but damages my social life.


Fear.

I’ve wanted for a long time to talk about fear in sorcery.

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When I first started doing rituals, I would call upon my Gods to watch over the ritual, to be my honoured guests at my sacred space. And there to assist me if they wanted to or saw it necessary. At first suspension of disbelief has hard to achieve. I was skeptical of my own abilities and such. But the more I didrituals and workings, the more I could feel their presence. To the point that their presence was so intense I would get shivers of paranoia and spooks. But of course eventually I got used to their presence and now all I get are tingling feelings of excitement when I become aware that my Gods are here with me during ritual. It is fear that made me understand I was finally able to sesne them.

Also when meditating I usually open myself entirely and let anything in. I believe any energy, positive, negative, healthy or sickly, can be recycled and used to empower or own energy. But of course there are these little mother fucker spirits who enter your spirit to scare the shit out of you. At first I would be scared. But that fear became curiosity, and started to let myself be invaded by other spirits. I wanted to know if I could regain control, and turn their game against them. At first I would simply chase them from the sanctity of my soul, then I’d start making their journey inside of me a torture. Now I either destroy them or consume them as if food for my soul. But in any case it was fear that made me want to be the feared one. Fear, a perceived loss of control over the situation, made me want to regain this control, or at least made me aware that since the beggining I was able to control it, but didn’t realise it right away.

Curiosity out of fear also happened when I started having sleep paralysis. It was at a time where I started developing my visualisation technique and stuff. Once again fear only drew me to want to cause even more instances of sleep paralysis on myself. I wanted to be able to control it. I wanted to overcome fear by becoming over exposed to it. It was enjoyable. Not fear itself, but the feeling I was becoming less and less frightened with each sleep paralysis I had.

Fear feeds my curiosity and it has made me realise, througg exposure, that we as humans are spiritually resilient, but the first step to actually make our resilience work, is to acknowledge it. it is hard for me to understand how some people stop sorcery and witchcraft completely after having a frightening experience.

Fear, is a loss of control. Fear is ignorance. If you call yourself a Satanist, then you better study what frightened you. Experience,  test, try to retake control of the situation every time you face it. Eventually you’ll suceed and you’ll realise the power inside you. The power to overcome any fear. Our soul is the soul of a  God, and nothing in the astral realm can damage it without your permission, and fear is allowing them to damage you.

Feeling fear is normal, facing that fear is Satanic.